I have no idea what this title implies. I wanted to read this book, just because how intriguing it sounds. I know I'm far from them both. Freedom and the ability to escape from freedom. I remember me having this conversation with a Buddhist friend of mine. We were discussing the definition of "attachment", meaning holding on to something and being unable to let go. If you persist in the attempt to prove your disattachment from a certain thing, it might as well be a form of attachment, right? Ah I don't know where this comes from. Two guys sitting behind me are talking about IPO and M&A and stuff. A little boy is peeping at my computer to see what I'm working on.
Yesterday a colleague of mine proposed to his girlfriend. I'd admit that it was as good as it could get. Even passers-by stopped and gathered, shedding tears and applauding. I wasn't jealous, but I was damn happy to be there, among all the witnesses of such a blessed moment. I guess I'm more jealous of those with a rucksack on their back and take off whenever they feel like. Yeah right, don't give me that "words are useless unless you turn them into action" speech. I know. I was writing this, novel, fiction, whatever you call it. But my stream of thought was once again blocked. Is there really sense in writing about the most trivial and boring things in life? I doubt it once in a while. I check my emails so frequently that I don't understand what I'm expecting any more. On one hand, I know what's gone is gone and I better be that sensible version of self. On the other hand, I secretly wish at times dreams come true and good things happen. The prince and the princess live happily together ever after. Do I really believe in that? No. A big and resounding no. You know, freedom could also be an excuse. You put the blame on your longing for freedom when you're not ready to commit. And gradually it becomes a habit. A habit of not commiting yourself to anyone or anything so that you don't have to be accountable for the outcome, for better or for worse. So there's gotta be someone who saves you from freedom. There has to be.
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